betrayal...

have you ever felt how it is to be betrayed by a close friend? one of your closest friend that is... betrayed both by people close to your heart? no? well lucky you. let me tell you one thing, it is one of the most grueling and painful torture you will ever face in this life. torture? yeah that's right, torture. coz no matter how long or how many years have passed, no matter what you do... the haunting memory of what happened will forever cause you pain. i know how it feels because I was once a victim of this... I was betrayed... not just one, not two, but by a whole sect I called barkada... maybe it was because I was seeking solitude at that time. maybe because i chose to be alone... or maybe not. in confusion I desperately held on,I asked for an old friend's opinion. he said, "Ayan na nga ba ang dati ko pang sinasabi sau e. nagaalaga ka kasi ng mga ahas..." that was enough for me, I knew it was also my fault. but there is one thing I don't understand... what do people who are about to betray you think during that time? during that time they're together? a friend told me, "simple. everything but us, but me." again it was enough for me. I think there is something wrong with me. why I keep toturing myself by bringing back these thoughts of betrayal, I don't know. but somehow i feel good. I find comfort in informing people about these things.