betrayal II...

sabi nila pag barkada walang taluhan. sabi nila pag barkada walang ganyanan. pero bakit ganyan? kagabi may nalaman ako. galing sa bestfriend ko. may nanuklaw sakanya patalikod. galing sa sarili naming kabarkada. umiiyak siya e. masakit un e. magbestfriend nga kami!!! pareho kami e. nauna nga lang ako. putangina naman!!! barkada ba ito? dado pasensiya ka na kung mabasa mo ito. pero sa birthday mo sa tingin ko hindi magiging maganda ang atmosphere. hindi ko kinakampihan ang bestfriend ko... walang kampihan. hindi ko pa naman nakakausap din ung isa e. pare kung totoo ngang nagawa mo kay engel un sana kausapin mo naman ako tungkol dun. mahal din kita e. kitakits.

go with the flow man...

alam mo sa tuwing nakakakita ako ng mga taong nagtatrabaho, mapa-ano man ang trabaho nila... nagkukudkod ng yelo, nagbubuhat ng mga pinamalengke, nagtatype sa computer, nagcocompute ng kikitain, nagseserve, nagluluto, nagtuturo... nakakakita ako ng bansang hirap talaga sa pag-ahon. nung minsan may nakasabay ako sa tricycle sa may balara, namalengke ata ung dalawang nakasabay ko. nung pababa na sila, nalaglag nung mama ung plastic na naglalaman ng mga binili nila. nabutas ung plastic sa kalsada. bigas pala ung laman kaya nagkalat sa daan. nakita ko ang hirap sa bansa natin nung nakita kong mahigpit na hawak sa palad nung mama ang bigas na natapon na kanyang unit-unting pinulot. biro mo nasa kalsada ung bigas. e kung masagasaan siya bigla dun?!! e di mas malaki pang problema inabot niya. ngunit sa paraang iyon ay nakita ko... ang hirap na talaga ng bansa natin. lahat ng kilala ko nagnanais magtrabaho sa abroad, gustong umalis ng bansa. ni wala ngang pagaatubili na iiwan nila ang kanilang bansang sinilangan e. dahil naghihirap tayo... tangina. kelan ba magiging maayos ang Pilipinas? ewan. cge mag-aaply pakong visa e. hehe.

may nakalimutan ka yatang isuot...

peram bola!

goalie saluhin mo mga bola ko ha? hehe.

oi laro tayo!!!! football!!!

football tayo!!!

nice one!

"What are you doing with your life? If you're in such pain, then learn to use that pain as your power." - New Police Story

Try to watch this movie by Jackie Chan. A very good movie. New Police Story

Paradiso! 

kamustas?!?

im sorry i wasn't able to post ANYTHING for the past days. i've been away to manila to supposedly enroll myself in a major subject i need to take so as not to get stuck next sem. to no avail no major subjects were offered this summer because our professors are teacheing other "students". bullshit!!! unahin pa ba ang mga may trabaho na, kaysa sa mga estudyante na halos magpakamatay para lang manatili at makagraduate sa UP diliman. tangina!!!!!!!!!!!!!! grrr...

libog o love?

ano na nga ba ang uso ngayon? aaaahh alam ko na... uso na ang gamitin ang salitang love para mapagbigyan ang sariling libog! haaay buhay.

hahaha!

naalala ko nga pala. when men always tend to think, women in the other hand always tend to feel. hahaha! so therefore kaya nabadtrip si babae kasi nalungkot siya at hindi siya pinagbigyan ni lalaki at si lalaki naman ay nabadtrip dahil biglaan at parang selfish ang dating ni babae sa kanya... irrational ba. so therefore ay hindi ko parin alam ang sagot. pero ganun naman talaga di ba? pagdating sa mga salitang pag-ibig ay mahirap makahanap ng absolute na sagot. hahahaha! may mga bagay na nangyayari at nagagawa ang pag-ibig. hehe.

mahal niya ba?

may dalawang magkasintahan. ang lalaki ay nakatira sa probinsiya at ang babae ay kasalukuyang nasa bayan. may tanghalan kasing magaganap sa makalawa at kailangang maghanda ni babae ng talumpati. napagkasunduan nilang luluwas si lalaki ng lunes upang mapanood si babae. sabado na ngayon, alas diyes ng gabi at sa lunes na ng umaga ang tanghalan. nag-uusap sila sa telepono.
babae: "Lumuwas ka na bukas!"
lalaki: "Bakit? Hindi ba't sa lunes pa ang iyong tanghalan?"
babae: "Papacheck ko sa iyo ang ginawa kong talumpati!"
lalaki: "Ang napagkasunduan natin ay sa lunes pa ang luwas ko."
babae: "Wala ka bang matulugan dito? Mga kaibigan?"
lalaki: "Wala na sa plano iyan. Ang napagkasunduan kasi natin ay sa lunes pa talaga ang luwas ko. Hindi mo ba maipapadala yan sa email ko ngayon o bukas para doon ko nalang i-check?"
babae: "Inaantok na kasi ako. Maaga pa akong gigising bukas. Madami pa akong gagawin. Hindi ka ba talagang maaaring lumuwas na bukas?"
lalaki: "hindi talaga pwede e."
wala nang nagsalita sa kanila at ibinaba nalang ang mga telepono. parehong nagkagalit.

mahal ba nila ang isa't isa? oo mahirap husgahan ang dalawang tao kung titignan lamang ang isang pag-uusap nila. ngunit sa pagkakataong ito... mahal ba nila ang isa't isa? mahal ba ni lalaki sa babae? mahal ba ni babae si lalaki?

professor and student in love?

when you see or hear of a relationship between a professor and his/her student what comes into your mind?
1) The professor is a sex maniac.
2) The student is a whore.
3) They are in love.
4) The professor loves to take advantage of his position of power so as to get whatever he needs with his student.
5) The student is clever in using this relationship to get good grades.

whatever the reason, I find a relationship like this sickening... professors who result to such acts are either desperate or super losers. They must be big losers way back in their highschool years that's why they result in such ridiculous acts. putangina! nakadidiri kayo!

everything is gonna be alright

sabi ni bob marley. no woman no cry. naiintindihan niyo ba yan? ang ibig niyang sabihin diyan ay no woman don't cry. di ba? "o my little sister don't shed no tear. no woman no cry."

betrayal...

have you ever felt how it is to be betrayed by a close friend? one of your closest friend that is... betrayed both by people close to your heart? no? well lucky you. let me tell you one thing, it is one of the most grueling and painful torture you will ever face in this life. torture? yeah that's right, torture. coz no matter how long or how many years have passed, no matter what you do... the haunting memory of what happened will forever cause you pain. i know how it feels because I was once a victim of this... I was betrayed... not just one, not two, but by a whole sect I called barkada... maybe it was because I was seeking solitude at that time. maybe because i chose to be alone... or maybe not. in confusion I desperately held on,I asked for an old friend's opinion. he said, "Ayan na nga ba ang dati ko pang sinasabi sau e. nagaalaga ka kasi ng mga ahas..." that was enough for me, I knew it was also my fault. but there is one thing I don't understand... what do people who are about to betray you think during that time? during that time they're together? a friend told me, "simple. everything but us, but me." again it was enough for me. I think there is something wrong with me. why I keep toturing myself by bringing back these thoughts of betrayal, I don't know. but somehow i feel good. I find comfort in informing people about these things.

paranoia

kelan ka pwedeng maging paranoid? pag may mahal ka di ba? pwedeng mahal mo ang sarili mo kaya paranoid ka para sa sarili mo, or may ibang tao kang mahal kaya paranoid ka para sa kanila. paano kayang iwasan ito? kasi hindi maganda di ba? di BA? nakakasira ng buhay, sayang sa oras, nakakasira ng araw ang masyadong nagiisip. masyado na kasi akong paranoid e. ano kaya? tingin niyo?

ganda no? 

shit!

sorrow...pain...such negative words are caused primarily by an ironic and mysterious word...LOVE. why? when your "in love" your crazy...why? cause you get to experience bliss... what is bliss? it is theheaven of joy...if this is so why does this heaven bring hell? why does love give you so much pain? simple...its because love makes you experience bliss and when for a moment this bliss escapes you what do you get? logic...its reverse...its exact opposite...sorrow. sorrow is the absence of joy. one only gets the chance to experience bliss because he experienced sorrow...it is inevitable...they come hand in hand...one maybe so happy today because he/she have experienced so much pain in the past...d amount of bliss one experiences will also be the amount of sorrow that he or she can sustain...simple deductive reasoning. why does this have to happen? why can't we be happy all the time? even i don't know the answer to these questions...but in the absence of answers we must find comfort...that not everything in this world has answers...we have to make the choice...to be bothered forever by these questions...or make the choice of learning and accepting the fact that the world is not made up of mathematical equations alone which can be solved...which have to be solved...we have to accept the fact that life would be simpler if we let these questions be...just like love...isipin nalang natin its what makes us feel alive. its what makes us appreciate the fact that we are happy or in pain today...its what makes us appreciate life...now make the choice... why? you know why...

life...

life sucks when everything never seems to go your way. life sucks when you know you can't control other people's decisions. life sucks when something bad happened and you didn't have the chance to do somethingabout it even though you are equipped with everything that could have made it good. life sucks when you know something happened and you couldn't do anything about it coz the desicion was never in your hands. life sucks when something is about to happen and you know it but couldn't do a damn thing about it coz once again the desicion is not in your hands. I say therefore that our life is never or should I say was never in our hands. yes we do something to make it good but just BUT somewhere along the road something bad just happens... you don't like it to happen but for some unknown mystical matter the fact of it happening was never in your hands. i learned to accept what life has to offer. i learned that being idealistic is synonymous to being stupid or naive. let's face it, our world was never an ideal world. except for the fact (or is it?) that it was perfect if adam wasn't a moron. he should have given eve a bite not the fruit of knowledge. kiddin aside, i now know that morons exist for a fact. yes i've been given the utmost blessing of meeting one early in my life so as to learn to avoid animals like them. or maybe my mind is just too "closed" to understand the principles that circle the mind of these so called "sharks". i also learned not to be so eager to make this world a better place. y? coz people who would come close to making this world a better place get shot. they burn. while those who in their spare time would do anything devilish just for the fun of it get to live a longer, moneymaking, moneyshowering, moneyswimming,pussyfucking life! WOW! great huh? irony? nah! that's just how the world works. fuck em good boys/girls and love em bad boys/gurls. truth? well, for me it is. but hey! i've learned to accept and understand na talagang ganyan ang buhay. well for now i say, lifesucks! but it sucks good! hehe. thanks for taking the time, reading this crap.

great empires
are destroyed
not by outside forces
but by weaknesses within